Don't worry about a thing, 'cause every little thing is gunna be alright.

I wish i got to see certain people a bit more than i do, but it wont stop me from trying. I'm not that kind of person, really. I give and give and give until i can't give anymore. Than when i have nothing left to give i just hope that what i have given to the ones i love made them strong enough to give back to me.
I know i can't keep giving to everyone though, even if i wanted to. I don't want to take, but i don't want to give. If i have to keep giving i want to know I'm going to get something back. For once.
I do everything i possibly can for my best friends, and significant others and i don't know why.
Why should i go 20 minutes out of my way to fight someone for my best friend if as soon as i leave there going to be hanging out? Why should i try talking to someone who will never actually listen to what I'm saying?

I just hate that no matter who I'm friends with and no matter who i date i still feel like a piece of shit. It doesn't matter if i fuck them, or fight them, or talk to them for years, or talk to them for days... i still feel worthless. I know that the only person who can truly make me happy is me, but how am i supposed to do that when I'm too busy trying make everyone else happier.

"and isn't it great to find, you're really worth nothing and how safe it is to feel safe"

"..i know it's a lie but i still give my love."

"...And on a seven day high
That heavenly song
Punches right through my mind
And pumps through my blood

And I know it's a lie
But I still give my love
Hey my hearts on the line
For your hands to pluck up
What gives this mess some grace unless it's fictions
Unless it's licks, man
Unless it's lies or it's love

What breaks this heart the most is the ghost of some rock and roll fan
Exploding up from the stands
With her heart opened up
And I want to tell her,
Your love isn't lost
Say,
My heart is still crossed
Scream,
You're so wonderful
What a dream in the dark
About working so hard
About glowing so stoned
Trying not to turn off
Trying not to believe in the lies..."

Another fall and with it, I'll fall too.

You're an awful friend, but only to me. I can't tell you how to act, or why you're acting like this but i can say I'm done taking it. I'm not giving you the note i wrote you. I wrote another one as a "fuck you" but you're not even worth it. Why should i go see you to give you a note you'll probably just throw to the side of your computer?
Have fun with your new friends because I'm telling you right now, I'm not one of them anymore. Fuck you. You're alone.

knowing nothing is better than knowing at all.

I have no idea what I'm doing, or what I'm going to do. I don't know what i want, or where I'm going. All i know is that I'm losing more than one person and i don't know how I'm going to keep them. I'm confused, and stupid. I'm not ready to let go, and i wont be for a while.
The used is this saturday! I'm going with two people i don't want to go with though. oh well.

I'm not gunna beat around the bush or anything so i'll just say you're a stupid cunt. I fucking hate you more than anything. go die... baby;)

I'm gone, forever. bye.

fucking bitch.