being unhappy with everything is all I ever write about, it's the only thing I ever notice. Mostly because happiness doesn't last forever. Little things like relationships mask loneliness, and loneliness makes you unhappy. Once your relationship is over, you really feel the way you always have in the beginning. I'm being anti social because I want to be, and I'm leaving relationships because I want to and I just want to start fresh, with a new mask and a new identity and just feel free.
People who 'feel' have to be unhappy, or head-over-heels type estatically happy and that states are difficult to achieve within the confines of a stable, solid, mundane relationship,or for that matter even the daily mundane life. I think thats the reason why folks like me cant be happy in a perfect relationship. I have to constantly have to scrape at it, pick at it, keep it in turmoil, pick at it a little more and unravel it till it all comes apart and then I am compelled to start all over again.
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