I feel very empty lately and need something to occupy my time and boredom. I need to start writing or start playing music to get something out of me. I feel like I'm useless, being able to do nothing but sit around all day and complain about the things I wish I were doing rather than actually going out and doing them. That's going to change.
Tomorrow's Valentines day, It isn't going to be how i once pictured it but maybe it will be better than my expectations in the beginning. I need what I'm doing, whether or not it's the right thing. It's making me alright.
Your post reminds me a famous urdu poem. Not sure if the translation captures the true essence or not. but anyway, here it goes:
ReplyDelete"Sitaron se aage jahan aur bhi hain
Abhi ishq ke imtehan aur bhi hain
Tahi zindagi se nahin ye fizayen
Yahan siakdon karwaan aur bhi hain
Khana’at na kar aalam-e-rang-o-bu par
Chaman aur bhi aashiyaan aur bhi hain
Agar kho gaya ek nasheman to kya ghum
Maqmat-e-aah-o-fughaan aur bhi hain
Tu shaheen hai parvwaaz hai kaam tera
Tere saamne aasmaan aur bhi hain
Isi roz-o-shab main ulajh kar na rah ja
Ke tere zameen par makaan aur bhi hain
Gaye din ke tanha tha main anjuman mein
Yahaan ab mere raazdaan aur bhi hain"
Beyond the stars there are worlds more
Our quest yet has more tests to pass
This existence alone does not matter
There are boundless journeys more
Do not rest on what you have
There are paradises more to explore
Why worry if you have lost one abode
There are a million addresses to claim
You are the falcon, your passion is flight
And you have skies more to transcend
Lose not yourself in the cycle of days and nights
Within your reach are feats even more
Gone is the day when I was lonesome in the crowd
Today those who resonate my thoughts are more