Today i was going to do a survey on Facebook about "friends". I sat there and started it. It asked me simple things like my name, age, sign etc. Than it got to "who's your best friend", i put Shelby Deane. Simple right? But after that question i couldn't think of any other friends. Than i realized that lately, I've let all my friends go away. Than i realized that I never knew who my real friends were to begin with because if I had true friends I'd have more than one still around. One friend that today, I had to apologize to. One friend that I ditched willingly today. After all my days of trying to get better, and trying to please everyone, i wasn't even pleasing myself let alone pleasing others. I messed up horribly. Nothing is going to replace this feeling for a while.