Love is all you need.

I miss the good ol' days. Feeling was everyone. Everyone felt. I was introduced to so many new things and people and ways of living. So many different lifestyles. Mgmt reminds me of all of it. I was so happy then. I'm happy now, just not like then.
When you first start living a certain way, whether it be straight edge, open-minded etc It's all so fascinating. All you want to do is try and try and try and meet new people and try some more new things. I think now that I've had my turn trying and found what's comfortable that I'm taking advantage of it and it's boring me. I think that's i'm boring myself when there's so much more I can do if i just get out of my room more often. I'm responsible enough to make sure I'm safe, I'm being good, honest with my parents. I'm not doing anything bad. I'm just living.

On another note, I'm not afraid to lose anymore. I've, overnight, grew a little. It's weird, I know. I'm just growing up i guess. I know that if I lose someone I'll be hurt for a while, miss them, and move on. There's so many more people out there to be fascinated by and interested in.

People I will love, and who will love me will come and go, I'm sure. I'll hold on to whomever cares to stay close enough. Those are the only ones who matter anyways. That and family. I've taken granted for too long.

My dad today asked me what makes me happy. I couldn't come together and say that he made me happy. I love my dad. Him and I haven't been this close since i was little. It's true that the only man you can trust is your daddy. Nobody in my family has really had the chance to be proud of me. I haven't been the best in the past. However, I'm turning around and I know I'm going to finally make them proud of me and that right there will make me happy.
Love is all you need.